I was completely shocked and traumatized. I found myself crying all of a sudden, for no apparent reason, for more than a week.
At first it was a completely emotional response, with no time for thought or perspective. Indeed, some 3 months later I realised, in hindsight, that I had just recently been feeling completely "right" again. Prior to that there was a certain apathy or emotional numbness.
I think this personal devastation was due partly to the immediacy of the event. I was just watching the normal Canada AM newscast and suddenly, in real time, right before my eyes, in the safety of my living room, I saw the second plane hit. I felt somewhat like this when, under similar circumstances, I saw the space shuttle carrying the teacher explode, only this was much, much worse.
We stopped watching television for a period of time after the first day because it just seemed to make the trauma worse.
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